I get the point too because the point you make is also well trodden. I’ve absorbed the point and normalized to that’s how it works; recursion and some incidental memoization to avoid going purely fractal thought. I still feel the buzz, but I don’t feel drawn to be all “fuck yeah I did a thing!” It’s rote pattern and living. I feel the buzz I just don’t need to wank off being normal.
In the end it’s just abstract memorization in neurons. No new physics was discovered that lets us instantly trip to Pluto. Good job having a typical biological experience.
Similar abstract buzz comes from a cup of coffee leaving me seeing it all as chemistry of our body, the semantic knowledge being arbitrary existing coincidentally at the same time. The languages value faded and I’m left with a clusters of cells that trigger some dated concept like I’m a dumb VHS tape copy paste of others. In the end the learning some syntax was a forcing function to a hormone process; the value of the syntax is never forever.
Good for you experiencing consciousness. It happened because it could not because there’s a point to it, no matter how much honorific gibberish and F words you use.
If you're no longer getting the buzz then that's nature's signal to you that you need to push yourself harder. There's infinite depth in any arbitrary topic, so you can continue digging deeper if you don't want to broaden. Or have you considered performing a rendition of Rick Astley's Never Gonna Give You Up as told by a 12 century pirate? That always brings me joy. You should give it a shot